Hello again. It's the whiner here. Sorry, I know it...but this place is the only internet site where you can just unload...and I certainly do that. But I appreciate the fact that many of us in pain have this site and can do this. Years ago..what did people do? Talk to the sky? I post here sometimes just to keep my sanity. Just to express what I am going through to someone else besides myself. I have been so sick in the last two weeks that I have taken myself to our local ER twice after not going there in months. My main complaint was feeling so sick and fainty and also extreme soreness in my abdomen. But this level of sick feelings and faint feelings is beyond anything I have ever had. And "I HAVE" fainted 3 times since I have gotten sick several months ago and come so close so many times without even going to a doctor or ER that these latest episodes are when I feel that I cannot get through these on my own. I am 55 . I know what feeling "kind of" sick is. I know what it feels like when I have a flu or maybe ate something wrong. What I feel now 24 hours a day ( upon awakening and throughout the day regardless of what I eat or don't eat ) is a sick all over feeling that is such a "something is seriously wrong here feeling" and is a combination of a low to medium grade nausea ( not the kind where you feel you may throw up at any second ) and a feeling that traversing all through my veins is a low grade poison that is making every part of you feel this way. Dramatic sounding I know... but it's the truth! Something that makes you feel so sick you want to cry. Man or woman...be macho all you want...it is so bad at times, you would feel this too regardless. Besides this poisoned feeling, off and on during the day I feel chills, prickly feelings in certain areas, then kind of hot flash clammy then back. Almost constantly now in the last couple of weeks I have felt kind of a pressure and sick feeling in my neck in front beneath my jaws and up a little that also feels like it's being systemically made sick. I mention this sick, slightly swollen full feeling in there to the docs and they feel there and say they feel nothing with the glands. I could rattle off ten other off and on feelings and symptoms but you know what they are. Loss of appetite, Funny feelings in face and hands, bladder occasionally haywire feeling,eveything else haywire feeling, pressure in penis and a little tightness in testical area,( not every day and maybe once or twice on the days I do feel this ) back pain, muscle pain, and "just sick" all over with some light headedness and body weakness all over and my gait is slightly off. But in my neck and in my chest and abdomen I just feel sick, sick, sick. As usual my last visit to the ER they called the psych ward and they asked me the usual first questions. Am I suicidal, homicidal, etc.. They interview you and ask their coded word questions. I swear it is like the old Soviet Union when someone is politically not in line and they send you to the mental wards to be declared crazy. This last time as always, these guys left right away and told the ER doc that they weren't needed. But the message has been sent to you by the ER ... loud and clear. And it's always humiliating. Once your records show this psych ward call once or more any future doctors accessing these records don't even begin to think that maybe you are "not" a mental case. It's a patient reputation ruiner. Slander actually. It's almost as if most doctors love finding this "outlet from the unexplainable physical reasons." avenue with which to dump patients who effect their frustrations and feelings of insecurity about not being able to diagnose them. In my case... my previous 54 years of having nothing like this in my life means nothing to these doctors. You just all of a sudden have lost it. You raise a family, work in long term jobs, never get in trouble with the law, never do drugs or alcohol, never hurt family or friends or co-workers. In fact you may be looked upon as a fun and extremely liked fellow employee. But if you go through something this powerful and somewhat long term with it's draining and agitating and frustrating effect on you and you dare show some shortness and anger when you are in the prescence of doctors....you can too often be thrown into the psych ward category way sooner than in any other area of your life. And it's tough to shake this unfair label with new docs. In my experience the last 10 months I have found many doctors hold this over you if you make too much of a fuss or dare question them too much or disagree with them. If they have any disagreeable situation with you...it's always that the "patient" has emotional or mental problems...instead of maybe the "doctors egos" and their "fear of the loss of the doctor-as-unquestioned god relationship factor" that is the problem more than the patient's expected loss of patience after long term suffering. There is a book waiting to be written here in the good ole U.S.A. about the incredibly unethical and humiliating misuse of the psychological dumping system in difficult to diagnose cases. I would love to donate my story for one page of this book. In this horrible and humiliating American medical community failing, you find yourself defending your sanity as much as trying to deal with your physical symptoms. Thanks for reading my latest rant. Who knows, maybe someday this problem will be acknowledged enough in our society that we may actually have it corrected.