Hi all. I said I would keep you guys updated about my talk therapy appointment. The second time around was a little easier for me. One thing I can definately say is that I would definately need more than 10 sessions. On the psychological side of all this, I can see that therapy is painful. I did open up more this time, I think because of the way the therapist had asked me the questions. I felt a tiny bit more comfortable talking to him, ALTHOUGH, I still do not think he truly understands what chronic conditions, such as ours, do to our emotional, physical, and mental state. One thing he said that kind of cracked me up was. "The next time you are feeling really bad, just go ahead and follow thru with your plans anyway". I looked at him and laughed (nicely) and said, "That is what I have been doing for the last 20 years" He just wrote everything down from there. He wants me to keep a "positive journal". I have to write down several positive things that happen to me everyday. I asked him to give me examples, because I honestly didn't know what kind of "positive things" he was talking about. This assignment is extremely difficult for me and by the end of the day, my mind is just too much in a fog to do this, but I have tried. To keep this short, I am still planning on asking him for a referral to a therapist who deals with chronic pain. I need to come to peace with this, and I feel that a therapist who is specifically trained in this area would be most helpful to me. I believe he will help me with this, I hope. With this therapist I only get 10 free sessions, after that, my health insurance will have to kick in, in order for me to see another therapist. I did bring up issues of jealousy which he wrote down, and will talk about that at our next session this coming Saturday. He told me therapy is hard work. I can sort of see that now. You do feel exposed, but I do not think he was judging me, I felt somewhat more comfortable talking to him this time, and hope it will help, even just a tiny bit. I am being realistic, 10 sessions is not much in the way of managed care these days, but I have to take it for what it's worth and just try. I am not looking for any miracles. Thanks to all of you who responded to my last post about this for your wisdom and caring concern, you guys are the BEST and always will be. Hugs, Chelz.