I wrote this to some friends to give them an idea of what i go through every day: I wake up sore, achy all over and unrested. I hobble over to the coffee pot and get that brewing. Jump in the shower. The hot water helps the soreness a little. I drink my coffee on the way to work, and try to wake up a little. At work I sometimes feel OK and can accomplish something, the rest of the time I feel grateful that I still have a job being so unproductive. then I look around at the healthy people and realize they are no more productive than me, and they dont have my illness to deal with, so whats their excuse. Some days its a struggle to stay out of the ladies room more than an hour to get any work done. Other days I just feel exhausted and watch the clock till its time to go home. On the drive home, I am exhausted, and fighting to keep my eyes open. I really just want to go home and take some motrin and take a nap. But I cant. I have to be taxi and drive my son around to all his activities. And I only have ONE kid. I cant imagine having 2. There have been plenty days when I nap in the car at my son's soccer practice. I sometimes wonder what the other parents must think of me. The library is across the parking lot from the soccer feild, and there have been days when I have not been able to walk across the parking lot to go use the bathroom in the library, and had to drive there and park in the handicapp space (no, I dont have a pass, and when I feel like that I really dont give a rats a$$). Then after all his activities I go home and cook dinner. Sometimes I have to run to the store to get something. After all this I am so worn out I cant do much but lay on the couch and veg in front of the TV until its time for another restless night's sleep. If I am feeling a little better, I will go on the computer. If I feel really good, i will go to the gym. The weekends I try to catch up on laundry, errands, etc, but there is usually so much to do I never get it all done. My bf lives with me and helps me a lot, and somedays I really dont know what I'd do w/out him. I dont really have many friends that I spend time with or any hobbies. My life is so overwhelming, its all the energy I can muster to just work full time and take care of my son. I am not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me. i do have a lot of joy in my life, and when i am feeling well, it makes up for the bad days.