My second disability hearing is on June 12th. For a while, I was getting my hopes all up thinking I'd get it for sure this time....it's been FOUR years since I started this SSI process. But I don't think I'm going to win now. My attorney told me that the judge hearing my case "doesn't believe in fibromyalgia." Great. Here I was thinking that I have a formal diagnosis this time and that should help my case. It all seems like a waste of time. My attorney wants to focus on mental issues. I have PTSD, depression and servere panic attacks, and as a result I rarely leave my home. I cringe at the idea of telling a judge about my history of abuse. I'm deeply ashamed of the way I am now. And I don't think telling the judge is going to work anyway...people don't get disability for PTSD and depression, do they? I've never heard of that. I have a lot of health issues, but except for the fibromyalgia (which the judge doesn't believe in) and maybe the PTSD, none of them are disabling by themselves. Do disability judges consider the combined effect of lots of health issues when making their desicion? I realize, for example, that asthma and allergies are not usually enough to disable a person, but when combined with IBS, frequent infections, chronic insomnia, low thyroid, neuropathy, carpal tunnel syndrome, recurring ganglion cyst in wrist that causes numbess and pain (it's been operated on but came back), ADHD and post concussion syndrome...I very rarely have a day that I can function like half a person, let alone hold onto a job. I feel physically ill at the thought of going before this judge again. He's kind of mean, and last time he spoke really fast...shot out questions so rapidly that I couldn't process them. I started to cry (which I HATE doing in front of people) because my brain was so confused. Last time I literally shook through the whole hearing. How do you get through this? Can anybody offer me any advice? Like I said, I rarely go into public. Under the best of circumstances, it's hard...this just seems so impossible. I'm rambling like an idiot, aren't I? I'm really in knots over this. I need to get approved, but I just don't think I'm going to. I've heard of many people on this board who have more problems than I do and they keep getting denied. It's all so frustrating.