I KNOW better than this, and I hope I haven't damaged myself forever now. My brother from out of town was here, and he and his friends had a huge party for a couple of their birthdays. I really did not think I was going to be able to go, but I dragged myself there. After having a few beers, I started feeling better (probably just braver actually) so I had a few more, then I wanted to head home and someone offered me something I know I should not have done, but did it anyhow, I just wanted to party, to socialize with friends I haven't seen for years. Let's just say what I did was not legal, but it kept me there, awake and feeling pretty damned good for a few more hours. Like until 6 AM. After having about 4 hours sleep I woke up in incredible muscle pain, and it hasn't gotten much better today either. I am afraid I have really hurt myself permanently. I reallly don't know what to do, I can't hardly go into the doctor tell them I abused an illegal substance and now I need help. I can't get enough pain meds as is and if I fess up they will think of me as a drug abuser for sure and cut me off for good. Is anyone else willing to admit to this, and if so did it eventually wear off? I am so spaced out, I can't think, can't hardly walk, and here I sit at work thinking if I just dropped dead it really wouldn't be that bad of a deal. Is there any supplement or food maybe that will speed (no pun intended)the crap out of my system? I hope this isn't an out of line post, if so I am sure it will be deleted very soon anyhow. Also, if anyone of you are tempted ever, because you just want one night, the way it used to be. DON'T.