I am in a deeper, darker place today than I have ever been before. I hurt; everywhere. My husband is cleaning the house, my kids are doing the laundry, and here I sit, crying and hurting, and knowing that I am completely useless to anyone anymore. I can't be a decent wife, I'm a total failure as a mother, I haven't even made breakfast for my kids today and it's almost dinner time. I can't work and help pay any of the bills that my dear husband is struggling to stay ahead of. What good am I? All I want to do is run away and hide. I can't even seem to find a way to talk to God anymore. How did I get here? Why did I get here? What did I do to cause my life to blow apart like this? Oh God, as much as this hurts physically, emotionally I think I'm at the end.