I am Bi-Polar from childhood. I was given my DX Six years ago. Iam 30, married, and have four children. Their ages are: 13, 11, 8, and almost 2. Girl,Boy,Girl and Girl. I also have one Girl age 10 that is not mine but lives with us five to seven days a week. I am a stay at home mother and my husband workes. We are very low income so managing all the bills, house and children can be very financialy frustrating. We struggle every day with money but somehow, I always find a way to make things work. The kids have everything they need and then some. It is usally me that goes without. I love my husband dearly but he is often selfish and thinks only of himself. I do the house work, yard work, house repairs, car repairs, shopping, child care, bills, school functions, baseball practice, ballet class, dinner, laundery, birthday and holiday shopping and planning. I have not done anything remotley enjoyable for many years. My husband and I have not been out together alone in over three years. Our oldest daughter has come into the "I know everything" years and has put quite a strain on us. Our son, has many mental Disabilities and this also causes much conflict with our oldest. There is constant screaming of children in our house and I find that often, I dont sit down in a day untill after the children are all in bed. We dont have family that live near us and I have no friends. There is no one that can deal with our children so we have no babysitters. I have been off my medicine now for almost two years and I find myself sinking into nothing. I have no where to turn, nothing to do, no where to go. I sit in the house all day looking at the same things. I have no adult conversation and I feel so alone. My husband can never understand because he gets out of the house. He goes to work, to his friends houses, out with friends, to the baseball or football games. He never cleans the house or offers to do anything. I have to get into an argument with him to get him to help me. I guess I just want to vent. I dont know what else to do.