I've been reading up on avoidant personality disorder, and also dependent and schizotypal. I have a few of the signs of schizotypal, but everything I have read abouit avoidant seems to fit me perfectly. I am very shy, have horrible self esteem even though I am very smart, do well in school (I'm 20 in college), I'm great at sports, etc... I am deathly afraid of people calling me ugly or fat (like all my peers did in junior high) and I hate talking to people, of the opposite sex especially. I want to have friends and close relationships, but I am too afraid to let people get to know the real me. My boyfriend of three years recently broke up with me, and I don't know how to handle it. I have never been this depressed before, even when my mother passed away, it seems like I hold on to all my negative emotions and when something else bad happens I feel the shock of EVERY bad emotion in my whole life.... If anyone has some links to info or knows of a therapist in the south eastern area of Virginia famimliar with this disorder please let me know. (email@example.com) Thanks so much, Jamie.