I just need to sit and vent/talk this out. I've been having some issues with my psychiatrist. He says I've exhausted all the AD's (which I found out this morning I haven't) and has been putting me on antipsychotics. These things are messing me up so bad! I was on Savella and I just didn't think I was getting much benefit. So, we talked once again and he wanted me off all AD for a month to find where my baseline is. I'm sorry but I didn't find that acceptable and I told him that. Someone who is asking for help should not be told to leave without some sort of back-up and maybe he should pull those med books back out (I didn't say that though). So, I'm researching the Savella which really didn't do much for me but here I find out he could have increased the dose and instead. He gives me another antipsychotic (he did this once before and it was really bad) which put me down in full fledge flare. I had back pain and I could hardly stand up for more than 10 minutes. The percocet wouldn't even stop the pain. I was tapering off the Savella to the lamictal. So, much pain...my back was horrible along with my legs. Oh, and I could not sleep hardly at all while the Lamictal was building in my system. Friday night couldn't sleep, Saturday worked outside all morning and tried laying down, didn't work. Did some more laundry and stuff and I took a snooze from 4-5 p.m. I was getting delirious and the pain was really coming on bad....but all I could do was stay awake. None of my sleeping meds worked. Usually, they have me sleeping in about 15 minutes. My sleep meds are Temezepam (restoril)....after 6 hrs. of that not working I tried my doxepine and that wouldn't budge either. I stopped taking the Lamictal (antipsychotic) on Friday and today my back feels just fine and I did sleep better last night. I just got up about every 2 hours and then went back to bed. Now he isn't returning my calls and I am fit to be tied. I've been taken my Lorazepam this morning to just keep my head above water cause this is just too much too take. Is this what a mental breakdown feels like? I've completely lost it, all I can do is cry.