2 months ago I called my inurance company nurse hotline to ask for some advice in continuing my care. I have been sick for 2 years and I live in a realtively small town area with some specialities having only one doctor. As many of you can truly understand, I have had more than one doctor here throw up his or her hands and say they either can't do anymore for me or conclude that I am an instant attention seeking, hypochondriac / psych case that simply needs a psychiatrist more ( for the first time in my life ) than a physical speciality one. And I have dutifully fulfilled this different avenue advice as well with a diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress but nothing else that would suggest psychiatric exaggerations of my physical symptoms. This is after 54 years of a same home town medical history of seeing a doctor maybe once every two years and these visits being mostly for minor ailments or check ups. ( wasn't even a pill guy. ) Even though these same docs have found 15 different pain or nerve or body stressing and weakening physical maladies and confirmed them ... the fact that I keep seeking answers to how these all came about so instantly or how they simply progressed 50 or 100% of their pre-existing state in just a few months time...just makes them get angry and eventually they will bluntly tell you they don't want to be your doctor anymore. So I called this SO CAL nurse and was told to see an immunologist. I was given some names and started calling. One immunologist/rheumoltologist doctors office in Palo Alto CA eventually got me set up for a first time consult. I called the other day and was even given an appointment time. The last question asked me was a seemingly casual " what is it you want to be seen for?" As so many of you know...that question is a very very tough one for people like us with so many horrible yet hard to describe symptoms to answer. I did my best and then the appointment secretry stopped me and asked me to hold. He was gone for maybe 3 to 5 mintues and came back on and said. " Uh, Mr. B----, I am sorry, it looks like you may not have an appointment after all." What? I was transfered to a nurse voice mail that I refused to respond to as I felt it was reasonable to have a live person answering the reasonable question as to how I could go from having an appointment time to having no appointment in 5 minutes time. I was full of reasonable questions. Was it something I said in my description of my reason for wanting to be seen? I never got a call back ( they had my number ) However, today my "referring" doctor's assistant called ( the doctor who sent my referral to this new one in Palo Alto ( again no doctor will actually speak to you ) and she told me this nerw doctors office called and said they didn't think they would be able to help me. I get no direct call for anyone...but I keep being turned down for doctors...even these first time visits. I called this doctor David Fishcer's office in Palo Alto back and finally got to speak with his nurse who was instantly condescending and telling me they didn't have to tell me anything. That calling the other doctor was all they were obligated to do. My only answer and question to this nurse was this...." I need to know "why" certain doctors in their certain specialities keep turning me down. I am the least informed person in finding out this answer. I need to know this to avoid constantly calling the wrong doctors and wasting their time and mine. What is it in my malady description that triggered your rejection? Again, I only ask this to know what it is I am saying that is turning off certain specialty doctors. She just said it was the doctors decision. Where the heck am I supposed to turn to for medical help if I keep getting secret turndowns without explanations? I went from having an appointment to not having one in 5 minutes time due to a conversation with this initial phone answerer and his secret one with apparently this nurse. I am posting this because I think it is important to know how people like us with admittedly difficult medical problem cases are treated. If we don't report these unexplained cancellations and other secret and hard to figure rejection responses from doctors...they just get tolerated...which they shouldn't.