I am so depressed this year. Had to confess to my husband so I wouldn't do anything stupid. I was so embarrassed and sad. I have very little Christmas spirit this year even though my life is very blessed with a great husband, kids and grand-kids. I just don't want to be here in my life right now. If my kids knew they would flip out. Not sure what is causing it, maybe my meds stopped working, Cymbalta 60mg. I want to and need to cry but the tears won't come. I've prayed for it to go away but no help there. Husband helped a little, we talked for about three hours. Oh, well, enough of this.