You know, where you focus on one thing that's bugging you in life and you obsess on it all night long and freak out all night long and totally make yourself sicker? I'm freaking out over having to go to court next month. I'm scared cause my lawyer said if they get a judgment against me, thirty days later they will seize my bank account. That scares me to death. I don't have enough time to do anything much with the money. I can only take out so much and hide it for my bills and food. We're going to be filing for bankruptcy, but he said they could still mess up at least one month's worth of bills, I don't know about two. The other thing that scares me is if they win this, they will destroy my credit for life. God forbid I should need to move, no one would rent to me with the words "didn't pay rent" on a judgment. The worst part is, it's not even true and I paid early the whole time I was there. They're trying to get me for the months after I left by saying I didn't give the full thirty days notice. And it's going to come down to the judge believing me or not. Anyway, that's my freakout that I've been doing all night long. And I know I won't be able to change whatever is meant to be, and all I'm doing is making myself sick and no one else involved is losing any sleep over it. I can't help it. I'm freaking out. I'm the worrying type. If I had a million dollars and was on a beach on a tropical island, I would still find something to worry about. I'd be worried about a monsoon or something. And making myself sick isn't going to help. I have to have some type of stamina to go in that court in a month. And I need some stamina to clean in here for an upcoming annual inspection. I'm scared I won't pass that either since it's nearly impossible for me to clean most of the time. So I'm on a merry go round freakout. I get scared, then I freakout, then I get more scared because I don't feel well and I'm sicker, which leads to more freaking out. It's not the first time I've done this all night. It happens whenever something major or scary is going on in my life.