...see you normally anymore? My husband lately doesn't seem to be able to get out of "caregiver mode" and just relate to me as friend and lover. He is burnt out from being around me. He says he doesn't know what to expect from one day to another. When I am up and fairly normal and happy, he is wary and even scolding, because he thinks i'm going to "blow it" and crash again. It makes for a very unhappy life lately. When I am around him I feel sick, unattractive, boring and stupid, not because of anything he says or does specifically, but just because he does not look at or see me like he used to. My CFS has been worse over the last week, and he can barely relate to me at all. He hardly talks to me, just gets himself some food instead of us eating together, and doesn't even say goodbye when he leaves. He is also very irritable and it is as if everything I say or do gets on his nerves or is twisted in some way. When I am alone I feel more relaxed and accepting of myself. I feel less lonely when I am alone than when I am with him. Lately I just want to give up on my marriage. It is too much work to try to hold it together as well as my health.