The SSDI people in my state had me go in for a psychological evaluation two months ago, as a preliminary to my hearing before a judge. While not pleasant, it was good for me to read his report (I requested a copy be sent) and find out how much is "wrong" with me. His conclusion was that I was suffering from actual physical symptoms and not trying to make something up. The problem, acording to him, is that I have some deeply-powerful-issues-stuff that I have been repressing for some time now, and that the stress of trying to hold in/deny the problem then manifests itself in symptoms as the body's way of complaining. He reports that only treating the symptoms will not make me well if the trauma of my past has not been recognised and "processed." He says my only hope is a lot of therapy and maybe new meds. If my current symptoms go away later on, I'll just get new ones to take their place. My "only hope" is ridding myself of this "demon," and statistically, chances of that aren't good. Whew! Sounds pretty depressing, but a friend pointed out that this is what I want him to say; he says I couldn't handle the stress of working at ANY job, and that I AM capable of depositing checks in my bank and handling the disability money when it comes in. Has anyone had an exeperience even remotely like this? Thanks.