Hi all, Yet another friend and his wife are having their first child. It's like a kick in the guts to me every time one of our friends/acquaintances has a baby. I thought I'd got over this - went through he** with the grieving in my mid thirties - but no. I still feel so sad, empty and not like a woman every time I even see someone with a kid at the supermarket. Isn't it enough that I lost my job aged 26 and along with it social life, most friends, understanding from family etc? Isn't it enough that I suffer so much physical and consequently mental anguish and most of it alone? But no, I have to watch and hear about people with ordinary full and happy lives who take everything for granted and don't even know what the flu is like let alone *THIS* illness. It's like living through torture or a nightmare, EVERY day. Does anyone else feel like this? Love Bunchy x PS Tee, if you are reading, that song on your youtube piece has been echoing in my mind all day long!!! I used to listen to that song as a healthy 13 year old - never knew I'd be listening to it so many years on in this state!