Anyone Scared

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by kat0465, Feb 15, 2010.

  1. kat0465

    kat0465 New Member

    to tell the DR about symptoms?? i have been sick almost 20 years now, and im still scared to go and have tests done. I guess im scared thier going to tell m im gonna die or something.
    i know this is a Phobia i need to overcome, but how?!!

    i go to my doc tomorrow, and i dont want to tell her how bad my heart has been acting cause im afraid she will order a test & they will tell me my heart is shot!

    i know knowledge is Power & all that, but how can i just give it over to God & do what i need to do? i guess im just so tired of being sick & going to dr's i just want to bury my head in the sand, anyone else having this Problem?
    thanks for letting me rant!
  2. HeavenlyRN

    HeavenlyRN New Member

    Kat - I guess I've never been actually scared to tell the doctor something, but sometimes I'm embarrassed to tell him things - for fear that I will sound like a goof-ball, or a hypochondriac or something.

    Perhaps what you are feeling in your heart is an effect of a med or something - something simple that could be corrected by a change in meds or something simple. IF, there could be something wrong - best to find it now before it could potentially get worse.

    Be sure to write everything doen before you go to the doctor so that, in your nervousness, you don't forget something.

    Good luck.
  3. Janalynn

    Janalynn New Member

    I haven't actually had anything yet to feel that about, but I have thought about that...
    how one day you're living life, albeit with symptoms of something, then you go and get some news and your world is changed forever. THAT scares me.

    You're exactly right though. Knowledge is power - so is finding things out early. Lots of what we feel also may be just a fear, there really may be nothing seriously wrong.

    I have such weird symptoms sometimes that seem to be so unrelated to anything that sometimes my Dr's just look at me like 'hmmm'.

    Re: your heart...that is scary, so I understand. I've had some scary feelings with my heart before. That isn't something you want to mess with or stay in the dark with, so please do tell your Dr. everything to make sure you're okay. okay?

    Let us know how it goes!
  4. greatgran

    greatgran Member

    I thought I was the only one that felt this way but I know exactly how you feel.. Why are we so afraid I am not sure but think its our anxiety and fear of disappointment.

    We do need to tell our symptoms, especially in your case with the heart, but we don't have to go for the test. Which would be in our best interest to do so.

    I do think if you should tell the doc about your heart, the test are up to you . I fear the test more than what they might tell me, I think. I did go for the heart test about 4yrs back because my ekg was abnormal. I had everything but the stress test I just couldn't becaue I was so out of shape. Nothing wrong , thank God, but anxiety causing PVC's.

    Kat, try to at least discuss some of your symtoms today and let me know how it goes.

    I will be praying fo you,

  5. TTSandy

    TTSandy New Member

    I know that feeling. I am experiencing the same thing right now. To make matters worse my doctor moved out of state and now I have to start all over with someone new. My anxiety level goes through the roof just thinking about it.

    I know that it is not rational but I cannot control the anxiety, I am just going to try and put it in God's hands and hope that all turns out.

    I'll be praying that all goes well for you and that you can put your mind at ease.

  6. kat0465

    kat0465 New Member

    makes me feel better knowing people understand:)
    although i cacelled my appt today, i just couldnt take the stress. even with anxiety meds, it is thru the roof.

    i keep telling myself the longer i wait, the worse it will be if it is something serious. I also cannot wrap my mind around possibly having to stay in the Hospital, i had an awful expierence with my Hystorectomy a couple years ago so maybe thats where some of this anxiety is coming from.

    Thanks gran for your Prayers, i sure need them.are your ok? e-mail me & let me know how your doing!
    TTSandy, i hate to hear your doc moved away, a good one is really hard to find.Have you found anothr cfs doc??
    i Made my appt for nxt tuesday so hopefully i'll make that one. let us know sandy how your appt goes

    If theres anything i can do for you let me know, us chickens gotta stick together,lol.
    At the end of the day your right we have to just let go & let God.
    Take care everyone & once again...Thanks
  7. loto

    loto Member

    Hi All, haven't been on for a few weeks.
    I'm scared also. Lately I've been having more and more things going berserk. The latest I've found out is that I have Overactive Bladder Syndrome now. So, FM, Acid Reflux, IBS, OBS, DDD, Chronic Sciatica, and I'm sure there's a few I just don't think of at the moment.
    Last week I also found out I have a melanoma. Yep, path came back as a small amount of melanoma on the lesion that was removed. So, in a few weeks I'm off to a plastic surgeon who will remove more of the area to make sure they got all the melanoma cells removed. I had one a few years back also, thought that'd be the end of all that, but i guess not. And, what scares me even more is that on March 3 i'm going to get 6 other spots removed that look suspicious to my skin doctor. I'm praying and praying that none of those come back as melanoma. I also had a basal cell that she removed, and, thankfully excised that one and got all the bad cells.
    So, not only do I have to deal with FM and all that other stuff, but now I'm dealing with this crap! I will see an oncologist, just to be on the safe side to get his opinion also.
    So, yes, I'm scared that every time I go to a doctor for something, something else will crop up. And I'm scared that one of these times it will be something very serious and life threatening. I know the dear Lord will only give me what I can handle, but right at the moment I am really really tired and aggravated about having to handle all of these problems.
    So, thanks all for listening! I'm glad we're all here to support each other.
    Prayers to all!!
  8. onset1990

    onset1990 Member

    even panic disorder, which i have, and phobias about Drs since I have been through the mill with tests and all. I have had that fear of hearing the worst all my adult life. It's just anxiety.

    But I wanted to say that I didnt get relief from my CFS until I went to a cardiologist! He seems to understand the nature of the central nervous system symptoms better than the other docs I've seen, especially better than rheumatologists, would just gve pain meds and more meds. My cardiologist gave me a beta blocker and a calcium channel blocker that help lessen my CNS response to stress. Not completely but it has helped pain and stress immensely!

    Plus, once I got a couple simple painless tests, like an echocardiogram, I was reassured that my heart is fine. Heart docs are the best. They deal with emotions better than most docs in my opinion.

    I totally understand your canceling your appointment. I do that sometimes. Then I go when I feel less anxious. No sense stressing yourself out needlessly if there's no emergency.

    Loto I had a skin cancer removed from my nose and the side of my head. Good luck with your other spots. With skin cancer, I definitely think it's better to go and know, and get it removed than to not know. Melanoma can be scary. I agree with talking to a specialist to get all the info you need to feel secure.

    In fact. I need to make a derma appt myself!

    Oh, and I have bladder cystitis too. Certain foods trigger it. One more thing to have to handle. ugh
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  9. skeptik2

    skeptik2 Member

    I've beat cancer twice by being honest with my doctor.

    The greatest fear is fear itself (paraphrase Winston Churchhill, WWII)...

    Now loto gave you the best reason in the world to overcome your fears
    and tell your doctor every little thing, if only so s/he can put your mind
    at ease, or rule out anything serious, or treat that which can become
    serious if neglected.

    Could you take a good friend with you? That way, even if your anxiety
    (common in FM and CFS) is high, the friend can make short notes so
    that if you are too anxious to remember what the dr. says, you can go
    over their notes later, and discuss any further testing that might be
    required to get to the bottom of the matter.

    Look, cardiac problems are being treated so successfully every day,
    now, so maybe yours is something that can be easily treated with
    meds, or maybe it's just the anxiety setting off the cardiac problem.

    I'd take double my anxiety meds 2 hrs before my app't, and do some
    deep breathing and meditation and prayer to get me into the right
    frame of mind.

    Hope you find a way to take good care of yourself...

  10. kat0465

    kat0465 New Member

    cancer, twice! i sure feel for you. and am so glad your good from that!
    My Brother in law had Lymphoma twice, and the pain & suffering he had went thru was awful,not to mention spending months in the hospital.

    Maybe thats part of the reason for the scared S***less attitude. i am not strong enough to deal with any more than i have on my plate now, i know i know, we only get what we can handle. but my Handle is Broke!!!

    Your right , i need back up and will find someone to go with me on the next visit. i just cant do it alone anymore.
    thanks for the tips, ill use them next week, and pray to be strong, whatever happens!
  11. kat0465

    kat0465 New Member

    I feel foolish, i dont even know whats going on with me. i cant Imagine someone saying cancer to me. your Plate is full, and Im sorry.

    If that were me, i would still be looking at the suspicious spots. and time is of the essence with any disease.I know your scared, But your brave. and i know you have caught it before it goes any farther!

    i think in my case if i had support at home i'd be better with all of this, but unfortunately thats not the case.
    Hoping you have a good shoulder to lean on! it means the world in times like these!
    Please keep us posted on how your doing.
    I'll keep you in my Prayers
  12. loto

    loto Member

    Eventually you will get to the point of getting everything checked out, but don't over analyze everything! At one point I did a lot of reading on everything that has the same symptoms of Fibromyalgia, and I literally drove myself crazy thinking "well maybe I have this, or maybe I have that too"!
    I'm not saying don't ignore everything, just keep an open mind, but don't drive yourself crazy like I did.
    I broke down last night----my mind was just going full blast on everything I'm dealing with right now healthwise, and I'm not happy with the way things are going with my teenage daughter. I feel like I'm losing her. So, needless to say, I was not in a good state last night. Then I convinced myself to stop and remember that God hears me and things will be better. It's so hard, but I always keep my faith that God will help take care of things.

    I'll keep you updated on my melanoma issues, and please update us all on how you're dealing!!

  13. TTSandy

    TTSandy New Member

    Well I had my first appointment with the new Dr. yesterday. My anxiety was off the charts but I got through it. I really liked the Dr. - she was very understanding and has ordered alot of blood work, including checking for some different viruses. She spent about 45 minutes just talking to me about my history and took copious notes on everything. I have another appointment with her in two weeks to go over all the results of the labs. She also wants me to go on meds for the anxiety. I am not one who likes to take meds but she said we would discuss it and mutually come to a decision about it.

    Hope you can keep your next appointment. My advice is to let the Dr. know up front how anxious you are and what your feelings are.