Though no one has complained (and I'm sure never will), I feel the need to apologize to you all for appearing to be self-absorbed in my own matters by not posting to other's needs. Right now, this is all so new to me (though the symptoms have been going on for years). I read all the posts where someone has lost hope, become discouraged, and just plain out having a bad time. I so badly want to reach out to all of you and offer some encouragement, but I feel that I am not really able to until I myself begin to feel a little more encouraged. It all makes me feel so sad that you are having to go through this and sadder still that I can't help yet. Thank you for understanding and please bear with me as I find answers and hope.