Hello everyone, I just wanted to let you know that I am back from my vacation in Jamaica, and wow, my body got so used to being at my second home which is my family in Jamaica. I just love it there so much. I will be posting some questions on here as I have time. I was able to see a doctor out of there and all. Some things she said were stupid and I don't think she has even practiced or interned in the US. You can't just walk up to any doctor and get treated. LOL. No insurance? They don't want you even if you have the cash to pay for the care. She didn't understand that and kept telling me and family that we were wrong and she was right. LOL we looked at her like she was stupid, and ignorant. If I could the care I needed where I am now do you think I would go alllll the way over there to see you? Naaaah I don't think sooo LOL!!! BUT some things she said were good and learned I need a crock pot to cook some of my food hehehe. Mind and body are very much connected. Anyway I came away with a sense with knowing that my ENTIRE family has my back and are assisting me with healing from my illness and I found a deeper connection with God through his beautiful nature of beaches, the green trees, and palm trees and vine plants, just beautiful. Loved the beaches nice and warm and got a lot of exercise in there. Anyway I am here and I missed home, but didn't want to leave Jamaica LOL. I will be back there sooner than I think. I learned that I am smarter than I think and that I can definitely beat this illness, but it will take more hardwork and dedication. Learning how to love myself and appreciate all that I am. Not in a vain way, but just overall loving me before I can love anyone else. Putting long term relationships on hold until I can get some proper care for myself and FIGHT THE SYSTEM. The US and pharmaceuticals, health insurance companies, and government screwed up the healthcare system. So I will be researching more on my rights and fighting them until I get what I NEED. I am waiting to hear about my SSI application results or what they need from me. I applied about a month ago, so I guess it takes awhile. Anyway my vacation was very life changing and came to understand the personality that I have and why I am the way which is genetics LOL.