I've been home from my trip to winona and the alter. Dr. a couple of days, and haven't gotten around to posting about it yet. However, i just received a phone call from my mom this morning. And i just can't believe it- ( She said my brothers livin girlfriend died last night, just like that! There was nothing known wrong with her, she was about 46 or so. I'm just in Shock, and feeling so bad for my brother. He is an alcholic, and i'm really worried about him. She was good for him. Before he met her, he said he was drinking himself to death, now i'm worried he will go back to that place. There no way to fix this and it will be such a big empty hole for him. I don't really socialize with my bro much, or see him, but i love him. We have different life styles. But she worked at walmart and everytime we went shopping we would see her, and talk, and she always had a big smile and a hug for me. Even tho we didn't know each other much. I liked her, just can't believe this. She also has an adult 21 handicapped child depending on her. I'm not going to run on down the 50 miles to be with him. It's the last thing he would want, in my family the men hide pain and just tough it out, (or drink!) they don't want consolance, comfort. My mom live right by him, i'll send him a card and tell him how i feel. I don't even want to think funeral, that makes everything so real, but i'll go. Please pray his heart would search for something besides a bottle, like the Lord. I love my brother, but i can't touch him emotionally, i'm still just the sassy little sister to him, who knows nothing. Hearting heart- I lost my grandma on Feb. 28, and now Jody April 28th, and i'm almost sure she did not know the Lord.