I just need a place to vent a bit about this. My head is still spinning from everything I was told today. First, the doc told me that I have a uterine fibroid that is embedded in the wall of my uterus and that's what has been causing me alot of problems for alot of years. And she said there is no way to remove it without a hysterectomy because of where it is. So I can either attempt to live with it, or wait till I bleed out again like I did in January and if they can't control the bleeding, I'll end up with emergency surgery. She doesn't want to give me birthcontrol pills yet because she suspects I have a pituitary tumor. My prolactin hormone level is high. So she's making me go for an MRI. And we had a fight over the IV dye. I'm severely allergic. And I said absolutely no way on the dye. She finally agreed to a regular MRI. But then I wanted an open one and they said my insurance wouldn't cover an open one at the place they called. So I had to agree to a closed one at the hospital. But the last time I did a closed one, it affected me very badly. I hope I can do it. While all this was so upsetting, my brain is fried, I also had to deal with how much the doc and her office are completely clueless about CFIDS/ME and Lyme. I told her that my severe NMH/POTS has really been bad lately, and she was like, clueless as to how bad it is. She made a comment about how if it interferes with my life, I can go for some heart tests. And I was like............Interferes with my life??? WHAT LIFE??? It's the main reason I can't function, or at least one of the main reasons I'm on disability. Then, she got this new receptionist who was a total monster. She was annoyed she had to make alot of phone calls and appointments for me that the doc ordered. Then, when she was on the phone to the hospital and they were asking alot of questions as to what I have, and I told her to tell them I have Advanced Lyme and CFIDS. She just gave me this blank stare and didn't tell them. They'll see it on my records at the hospital, but I was so angry that she just ignored me. And then she gave me alot of problems because I can only go to the local hospital, I'm not well enough to go further. And she was like, why can't you go here and here? Why, why why. And I was like, cause I can't. No one understands that I'm not well enough to do alot of traveling. I can't do it. And I have no one to take me anywhere. And my money is running out and I can't be spending it on expensive cab fare. This was just a really lousy day. And the doctor told me I can forget about ever having kids, which I knew already, but it's not nice to hear it. And I am so sick of dealing with people who don't know anything about CFIDS/FM/ME/Lyme. I just wanted to SCREAM in the office, why don't you people KNOW anything??? UGH! The only highlight was she did double my Armor thyroid med. So I've spend most of my life being told all labs are normal and I'm just a nervous nut, and now they are finding a ton of stuff that was apparently there for like twenty five years or so and no one found it before. This post is too long for me to get into that. But I had terrible problems gynocologically as a teen and I was told that I was just a hysterical teen most of the time and they ignored my irregular periods. And basically put me through alot of hell when I now know that I had fibroids all this time. And then the Hashimoto's that should have been treated from the time I was a kid. The list just goes on and on with what should have been done and how my life was destroyed because none of this was found twenty five years ago.