I LOVED my life a few months ago. I really did. I was truly happy for the first time in my life. Now, I am having a hard time holding back the tears. I have been having symptoms of fibro/cfs symptoms for years. I was also in a terrible MVA in '97 that left me with a traumatic brain injury. I was diagnosed less than a year ago, after years of multiple symptoms and doctors. My ex husband/father of my dear sweet child and I got back together around the time I was diagnosed. I do not have any contact with my parents or only sibling. My 'husband,' 'bf' is telling lies and acting like a lemming, again. He does not stand up for himself, my son or me or say anything of substance, if he did I am afraid, I wouldn't notice. I just want to scream, "I have a brain injury and fibro/cfs! What is you excuse!" I want to be in love again. I want to feel loved. I want to trust another human being again. I am afraid it will never happen. Tonight, I told him, "I am angry, angrier than I have ever been with you. I don't trust you at all. I feel like a fool letting you back into my life. You are supposed to be my support and I honestly believe that I do not have anyone to depend on in my life." he said all that one would expect, 'i love you, I am hear for you' all that crap. I told him that I am going on with my life and he was either with it or going to be left behind and that i don't feel a damn thing for him. I wish I felt something. At this point, I am angry that I let myself get taken by his crap. What do I do? What would you do? I feel like I have this giant wall that just 'poof' appeared around me. I am so angry. The cards are stacked against me and DAMN IT! I am going to get past all of this without even a scratch. Right? Every time I have relied on the help of another person, I have been screwed, not let down, but screwed. Must be my fault. Right? I don't want y son to grow up like I have.