All hope is gone. Nothing works. My life is over. I just can't go on. I don't know how I keep breathing, somehow the sun keeps rising and setting every day and I'm still breathing. I hurt so much, in more ways than 10. Thanks for any encouragement and I apologize for not being in a place to give encouragement to anyone. I'm miserable, bitter,and pathetic. I'm afraid of going back to the "hospital" so I pretend to my docs.