Hi all, I'm new and hoping to find some support and understanding and maybe some guidance as to how to make my life more manageable. I started experiencing Fibromyalgia symptoms a few years ago. Tried a number of antid's with no really good results, but a good bit of weight gain. I'm not currently on any....I just can't allow myself to gain anymore as I think the weight contributes to the condition. It certainly has made me miserable. I've given up caffiene and I take a good multi, fish/flax/primrose oil, garlic, b complex, C, in the morning, and calcium, magnesium and chasteberry (for pms) at night. I don't take anything for the pain simply because I can't afford drowsiness. I do take Xanax (used to be 1/2 situationally, but now it's more like 1/2 in the am and 1/2 in the pm) for anxiety. I'm living a very high stress lifestyle. I'm divorced with 2 sons 25 and 19, and the 19 year old lives at home with me. I have a job that's brutally demanding. I'm just about desperate to leave but being only one deep financially it's very frightening. I'm also primary caregiver to an elderly mum with early alzheimers. She lives around the corner from me, and oversee her life (bill paying, meds management, etc). I'm a college student part time (requirement of my job). Other than knowing they do love me, I get no help/support from my family. There's no one to turn to, and they rely heavily on me. I've been in a long distance relationship with a wonderful guy in CA for the past 4 years and I'm longing to move there. We've talked about it extensively and tentative plans are underway. Of course tho, this adds more stress because of the prospects of such a major change. Thing is with all this I'm at my breaking point. I've been in pain all weekend, I'm overwhelmed at the propect of the week's work. Literally dreading it. Actually, I'm overwhelmed at everything. Between work, my family's needs, my relationship and this illness it's just all too much for one person. I'm a capable woman, and I've accomplished much in my life and career. But I'm exhausted, I'm hurting, I'm overwhelmed and I need a break before I break. How in heaven's name do I take care of myself in the midst of all this?