I can't remember the last time I was not in pain anymore. It has been so long now. I am amazed at how much I can can do while in this kind of pain. Do you know what I mean? There are times I stop and think that there is just no way I can go any further with this but I just keep pushing. Rest doesn't help. Pain follows me everywhere I go. Sometimes it just hurts so bad while I lay in bed I just have to get up no matter how tired I am. When I try to explain my pain I tear up everytime. My husband really does know now how much I hurt due to all the tears I have cried and I am not a crier. I feel that most people would just buckle if they felt what I felt. If they could just walk one day in my shoes they would know what real pain is like. I have thought often how can I be in so much pain and not be terminally ill. Feels like my bones are gonna break and my muscles just stiffen up and will not move.