There are times, I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up. I am in so much pain all the time. My housework is suffering. My life is pretty much at a stand still, I never feel like I have slept, and on a rare occasion, I will fall asleep for 15 to 20 hours. since 2000 the symptoms have gotten worse and I am so sick of most Doctor's not believing in this strange flu like pain, I seem to stay in. I tried physical therapy it put me in the bed for almost 2wks. I went through water therapy and it helped but I can't afford to stay in therapy either. I tried a chiropractor, 3 times a wk with some pain relief but that is very expensive. Most doctor's don't even recognize it. I used to play sports and was very active with Church and raising my children. My second marriage ended because of the disease and my son lives with his father because of this illness. My husband now is very supportive but I can see his disappointment when I don't really feel like doing anything at all. I wasn't a depressed person until this disease. I have tried everything to relieve my symptoms. daily walking, daily exercise, lyrica, even went to health food store and asked for supplements. I don't understand why some of these treatments work for others and isn't working for me. I finally went to a psychiatrist, now I am really depressed. She put me back on Cymbalta and to be honest, I don't feel any better or any worse. They gave me these sleep exercises but I still wake up feeling the same way. I am exhausted. I can't do this anymore. I won't do anything to hurt myself, but it has crossed my mind a few times. For 12 years, I have tried everything my physicians have asked me to do. I have listened to family members. I feel like I am dying and my brain hasn't realized it and keeps waking up every day to torture me. Now I have permanent nerve damage. I am sorry, I know if my life is this horrible, there are probably people worse off than I am. Anyone got anything new to try. I have lost my insurance so, whatever it is. My husband will do everything he can to get me treated.