Anyone else get so stressed when they have to be somewhere because you don't know how you will be that day? I have a few things in the coming months where I have to be there and I'm just dreading it cause I don't know how I will be. I never know day to day how I will feel. I try to never make real plans anymore because I cannot keep any of them. I'm not reliable. I can't even volunteer for anything. I'd love to, but I can't. And I hate it when people ask me to be someplace because I don't like to say no, and if I say yes, I know I'll end up canceling. All this makes it a million times more stressful when I have to be someplace. And that can actually cause a flare, so it's like almost self perpetuating. I dread it, I worry about it, I make myself sick over it, and then I end up really flared out and sick like the night before I have to be someplace. And I really don't see a way to stop it. It's sort of a never ending cycle. I worry cause I'm sick, I get sick from worrying about how I'll be that day, it just doesn't end.