When my body shut down in 2003 I was very angry at God. I wanted nothing to do with Him because he was letting me suffer in a way I did not understand. To make a long story short I eventually realized I needed Him in my life. It wasn't easy. The first step was to tell Him exactly how I felt and how angry I was. I knew I needed to worship Him even in times of distress and even if I really didn't want to. What I did was put on praise & worship music. I hated listening to it and would cover my head with my pillow but I didn't turn it off. After some time I could just lay on my bed and listen to it. Finally, I was able to sing along and worship God for the first time in several months. It is important to trust Him because we can't see the full picture and He has a plan. Worship Him and you will be able to open the doors to fight the darkness.