hi all. i just wanted some advice from you guys. as i mentioned in my other posts, my health is worsening pretty quickly. i am supposed to start vistide infusions next week but i just read that they are like $2500 each and that doesn't even include the doctor's visits and extra testing. i would have to do this every 2 weeks. my mother said she could afford it for maybe 9 months but that's all. the CFS comes right back when you stop, from everything i have read. now i am wondering if there is any point in doing the treatment. also, since my liver rejects valcyte at the high enough dose, it might reject vistide too. should i just give up? i feel like taking a bottle of sleeping pills but i cannot do that to my mom...but i also cannot live this way much longer. what do i do?