I finally gathered up the courage to call my health insurance and inquire about some chronic pain therapists in my area I can go to. The rep was very helpful and gave me the names of about 8 therapists, 2 women, 6 men. I haven't made any decisions or appointments yet. All the terapists are psychologists. Last August I took advantage of my employers "Employee Assistance Program" which allows us 10 counselor visits for free per calander year. This counselor really wasn't of any real help to me because I just don't think he understood my FM issues at all. I did ask him for referrals to therapists who deal with chronic pain, but instead, he gave me the name of two therapists for cognitive therapy instead. I think he felt I needed that more, maybe he is right, not sure. My problem is I feel overwhelmed with choosing a therapist. Just like doctors, there are all kinds of therapists who deal with different problems, unfortunately, chronic pain and how it interferes with my life is my most difficult challenge........................but I also deal with lonliness, low self esteem, hating my life, batteling my weight, anxiety, work problems, relationship problems and a TON of regrets. This makes choosing a therapist very difficult for me because there are so many issues going on, and I'm not sure at all, if the FM is at the center of it or not I wish I could start with my integrative doctor, but I don't feel comfortable discussing these issues with her, she is a little arrogant and I don't feel "safe" bringing this topic up to her and asking her for a referral, if that makes any sense. These sessions are expensive. I get 35 sessions per calendar year and the co-pay is $35.00 a session, way up from last year which was only $20.00 I believe. This is so typical of me, I will stress and stress about this and wind up never making an appointment with any of them because I get too overwhelmed with the whole process and choosing. One of the reasons I am so afraid is because I have tried so many things to help myself on my own, and I usually fail. I will not take antidepressants for many many reasons, so if that is brought up by any therapist, I have to decline. Exercise is almost impossible for me because of pain and fatigue, although I have tried very very hard with that, not much success. I struggle to keep a good diet because most foods are my enemy because of weight and food sensitivities, I just feel like I am such a challenge, I would wind up feeling sorry for any therapist having to deal with me Where do I start? Sorry for sounding overwhelmed (I always sound that way), but I am procrastinating as usual. Hugs, Chelz.