I have come to a great conclusion, I can best communicate with you guys only. I came to this board years ago, and have posted many many time and have replied many times, and I realize that I have shared with all of you my upmost fears, dissapointments, venting, advice giving and receiving, but I can't do hardly any of that with family, co-workers, any friends (I don't see them much) or anyone else. The reason I am bringing this up is because today being Thanksgiving, I had disagreements with my family, I am not really that close to my young nephew anymore, my brother-in-law couldn't wait to just eat and run, I had to take frequent breaks from cooking and cleaning up, my sister always tries to "rush" me along, and she knows that I just can't do that, I felt sad once again, but kept my mouth shut I really cannot express what my FM feels like to anyone but you here on the boards, and I am grateful for that. On another subject, it is also extremely hard for me to date because I wouldn't want the poor guy to go running when he really sees how "delicate" my condition can be and the moodiness that can go along with it, actually, I wouldn't blame him, but again, I really couldn't communicate that with any guy, just the thought of it gives me terrible anxiety. I posted earlier this week about seeking a therapist for chronic pain, maybe I should throw in there communication as well........but guess what? I don't think I can talk to them, it is so overwhelming to me. So on this Thanksgiving day, I thank all of you, I truly do. Hugs to all, Chelz.