I had several whip-lash type accidents in my late teens - early twenties. The headaches and pain have progressed over the last 18-20 yrs. The last 5 yrs I have been more and more fatigued also. The last year or so, the headaches are constant and a lot of times at a level that I can't work at my day job. So, I miss a lot of work (thank God for FMLA), but I am waiting to be fired or let go for some other reason. I feel very guilty when I miss work, but the fatigue, pain and now depression have me practically disabled. I have always worked so hard and felt so accomplished at what I do....now I feel like a failure. I feel a lot of guilt over how my health issues have affected my kids' and husband's life. I have contemplated suicide many times -I just don't want to leave my family. Even though I have decided suicide is not the way for me, still the years of pain are yawning in front of me. I have already been in pain for almost 20 yrs...how much more can I possibly take? Is this "as good as it gets?". Please help me with any advice regarding the pain and fatigue...esp. the headaches.