Hello all I am relatively new here, so if I am posting a topic too sensitive, just say so. I thought from reading the threads and posts how we all spend our days 'coping' and just trying to stay alive and functioning. I am wondering how many of you started trying to 'survive' as children? Since my childhood I had to learn quickly how to cope with parental alcoholism, violence, emotional absence and finally being orphaned at 17. I've lost alot in my life and with the grace of god (certainly not the grace of many people i'm sorry to say) i worked thru college and have been able to hold a job. I feel like a war survivor and can't seem to lose the feeling of being chased by demons...its quite exhausting and I'm not young anymore. I'm not looking for group therapy...I wondering if the stress of being alive is not a fundamental issue that is common to all of us? I'm not saying the illness is mental, I'm saying the stress we've all lived thru may have completely blown our circuits....I know that's the case for me.