Yesterday was a very rough day. Let me start out as saying that my father passed away suddenly a little over a year ago leaving me to care for my 80 year old mother. Altough my mother is 80 with a heart condition, she is pretty independent as far as getting around, problem is she can't write a check, balance a check book, understand almost anything that has to do with bills or making big decisions, my father did all those things for her. Health wise, she is pretty good, has plenty of friends and can be at times active. I, however, feel like I am in an emotional prison. My mother has ALWAYS been super critical, must be how she was raised, she complains about my weight, calls me fat, calls my little nephew fat, (he's only slighly overweight) and such. My mother is aware of my FM. She knows I have a very stressful job, I do all her bills as well as mine, take money out for her on a regular basis, take her to doctor appointments, etc. Even though I live with my mother, I try to keep busy and try not to be around her too much because of her overbearing personality. Keeping busy can be extremely difficult with my FM, I get moody with my pain, fatigue and all the extra mental responsibilities I know have with her. Yesterday, we were both at my sisters house for dinner and she started with her criticism, once AGAIN, this time I completely lashed out at her because she upset my nephew terribly, who is only 9. She PRETENDED to faint, which I as well as my sister and brother-in-law knew was only an act, my nephew was horrified. Only when my nephew was becoming completely upset over this, did she pretend to wake up. She has done this before in the past, so this is nothing new for us, but it was for my nephew. This is inexcusable and unforgiveable behavior on her part. I must say, my mother is childish, and likes to have attention brought on her her, this is nothing new, so it is not because of her age, just her vindictive personality trait she has always had. We try hard to include her in dinners and such, but her jealous, mean spirit always comes out. This truly affects my health. Working full time then having to deal with this is getting to be too much for me. I can't move out for various reasons. I could go on and on, but this post would be way too long. Physically hurting badly today, and emotionally as well. Hugs, Chelz.