I just felt like posting to the only people in the world who can truly understand. I hurt so bad, and have been in such horrible pain and the exhaustion is so bad this time, I can hardly breathe, let alone cry, but I'm crying. I am just stuck in the place of pain and then I feel so much guilt for whining when I know I am not dying, but my whole life is falling apart due to this stupid FM. Friends, family, finances, my job....I'm finally going to leave my job because I just cant keep going. 9 years after being diag, there is nothing I don't have as far as medical issues. Every single day something is wrong with me. I have no life. I'm so blessed to have a spouse who does it all but I feel so horrible watching him do it all. Work, home and couch and bed. I do nothing on t he weekends except lay now. I literally have to remind myself to breathe I am so exhausted. I know I'm not alone. I just needed to talk. Hopefully there will be better days after I quit this job.