When my father suddenely passed away this past May, everything has been crumbling. My mother is 79 and was totally dependent on my father. I lived with both parents since I was never able to afford housing on my own. I have had to take care of all of his bills, and of course mine as well, contact an attorney, call social security, call about his pension plan to see if my mother was eligible to get a part of it, sell his car, which I did and basically take care of everything this list could go on and on, but I will spare you all the details of that. My parents were foreign, but my father tried his best to educate himself, not so with my mother. They have both lived in this country for over 50 years, yet my mom can't even write a check. I have a sister and brother-in-law who have only helped minimally, even though my sister knows my own health condition with my FM, this makes me so sad beyond any words can describe. I think she feels it's all up to me since I live with my mother, not fair. My job is very demanding which was a problem before all this started and because of chronic pain and fatigue problems, I have always suffered a mild depression, now it is overkill for me. I find myself snapping at my mother a lot, which always makes me cry afterward because I know she is grieving as well. She is needy and needs to know where I am all the time, I'm surprised she's not walking down the steps right now asking what I'm doing as I'm writing this post. I feel angry, lonely, hurting physically and emotionally, I don't think I am even strong enough to go seek help, but then again a doctor would only put me on drugs and my particular FM body does not withstand antidepressant drugs, so I am between a rock and a hard place. A close friend at work told me I am showing signs of typical bereavement and the depression and anger that could go along with it. My body hurts, my FM is out of control once again, and even though I love my mom very much, I admit I am angry she is so clueless about everyting. She was needy before my father passed away, now it's much worse. I wish I could get out and exercise, but my body does not respond well at all to exercise at least not anymore, so I have lost that as well. What should I do, I'm terrified this will only be a downward spiral for me and my mom. Sorry for sounding angry and uncaring, but so much has been put on me. I am single with no one else to help me or my mom, I don't think any drug can help this situation. Thank you for listening, hugs to all Chelz.