this is the most i`ve posted on here in a while,but you all have helped me a lot just answering what i`ve already posted,and i`ve learned quite a bit in the past week. but this fm stays bad on me because we are in a financial bind, that is unbelievable. we take 2 steps fwd and 4 steps back. i give up, i`m at my lowest today on depression,my next therapist visit is 1 week from now, i have started withdrawing from everything and everybody i can. i can`t help it,its the only way i can cope with all this mess, of pain,stress,more pain,bills,bills,more stress,more pain,then usually when i can sink no further without offing myself, i have a fabulous flare-up, (not funny i know)i`m just so stressed out and depressed tonight,husbands at work, just me and my thoughts just needed to vent some tonight. does anyone else have this particular problem? if so let me know,so i won`t feel so all alone. nje ps. i wouldn`t wish it on no one though.