I think i have finally hit the bottom, i seem to cry all the time i am so sad lonely guilty a failure and in chronic pain i feel helpless and hopeless i dont know what to do anymore and i feel as if i dont care. I think about suicide most of the time lately but i can still rationlize why not for fear of what if it doesnt work how much pain would i be in then. I use to keep my house clean i use to cook and do things now i dont hardly eat and my house looks like a tornado came through, i dont go out unless i have to i dont sleep hardly maybe 3 to 5 hours a night. I have been this way for a while now and it just seems to get worse. In August of 2009 i injured myself i cant get away from the pain it feels like my neck shoulder and shoulder blades are on fire my right hand feels like it is always asleep numb tingling feeling i lost my job due to the injury i cant do the job anymore according to the doctor so now i dont know what to do i hope someone out there might be able to relate and give some advise thank you for letting me vent.