no insurance=minimal meds=pain fatigue and depression Its hard to have FMS and CFS at the age of 16 in case any of you were wondering. I have to be at school at 6am and I leave at 4:30pm. At home I do chores, homework, play with my 3 year old nephew, and try to have some time to myself to recover from the long day. Last week I was wimpy and didnt go to school for 2 1/2 days I missed some tests and quizzes which are now made up but not put into the gradebook therefore I have 3 F's so this weekend there will be a freshmen competing in my sophmore spot, the spot that I worked for my entire freshmen year and summer and the beginning of my sophmore year. I have lost it. On top of that there are the usual teenage social problems and family life. I'm really having a hard time sticking this one out I feel so alone. I wrote a poem the other day it explains how I'm feeling. So much potential bottled up hiding deep inside of me My tears drown this coffee cup as I sit in agony This body has failed my very dreams The things I loved like joining the Marines So I gave up on life now all I do is cry I may have even used a knife but I'm not gonna die.