Hello, I am a 26-year-old male. I do not really know what is wrong with me. I seem to be suffering from some of the symptoms of depression but I don’t know. Maybe I just need to get off my ass and do something with my life and stop feeling sorry about myself. All I know is when I think about it, it has been a long time since I have felt good about myself. There are lots of things that I could have done differently in my life that would have put me in a better situation then I am in now. But I think about that stuff too much. I am always wishing I was 18 again or 21 or anytime but now. How the hell will I feel when I am 50 or 70? I can’t remember when I had a good time doing anything. Whenever I try to do things that I used to enjoy it does not feel the same. It feels as if something is missing. I used have fun with friends but in the last year and a half I have really become anti social. On Friday nights I do not like sitting in my house. But when I go out, I just go to bars where I won’t meet anybody I know. I usually just do a lot of driving around. I never talk to anybody. Sometimes the bartender will even notice that I look down. What can I do about this? I think it would help if I talked to somebody but I have an HMO and I don’t even know if it would cover therapy or whatever. Does anybody else have an HMO here?