i am feeling depression like I have never felt before. I am so tired and fed up with this disease running my life. I just want to stay in bed and not deal with it. My anxiety is also off the charts. I am tired and embarrased of having to cancel plans with friends because I just can't get out of the house. It exhausts me to get ready to go out. We took a weeks vacation and I was in bed for a week recovering. Is this the way the rest of my life is going to be? Anyone else feel this way?