Still haven't won social security. I think it's been 3 years now? My boyfriend lives in another state. I have to wait until he moves to see me. I have been dating for 2 years. I have scary neurological symptoms doctors can't explain. A new stutter that is so bad sometimes I can't talk at all. I can't feel my hands anymore. I take too many drugs to have CHILDREN. Even worse my neurologist "can't see me" until DECEMBER. Even though many of my symptoms are rapidly getting worse, and I'm getting new symptoms. I had been doing better with a lot of dedication to pool therapy for over a year. It was HARD to keep it up. And now it seems like it was for nothing. Everything crashes down in the course of a few weeks and I am lost again. I can't talk to anyone about this. They don't know how to help, and all I do is make them worry.