Desperate!

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by nicolebr, Nov 27, 2002.

  1. nicolebr

    nicolebr New Member

    I have posted before...thank you for your support...it is very difficult for me now ....holidays....alcoholic father...no doctor...in a strange town with no help in sight...I was suppose to see a specialist in Boston today but my father yelled and makes me more anxious and upset...the fibro pain unbearable..can't sleep...no one to talk with...Afraid to call an emergency line as I have so many pychical syptoms afraid they will not believe me and just admit me to a psych. ward...although I am extremely depressed and need someone to talk with....

    Does anyone out there live in Mass. and would be willing to talk with me. I just need a kind word, some hope, someone who understands sleep deprivation and loss of so many things due to this illness...

    Or even a number to call....I am not from here...but need someone who will understand and help me get the help I need.
  2. nicolebr

    nicolebr New Member

    I have posted before...thank you for your support...it is very difficult for me now ....holidays....alcoholic father...no doctor...in a strange town with no help in sight...I was suppose to see a specialist in Boston today but my father yelled and makes me more anxious and upset...the fibro pain unbearable..can't sleep...no one to talk with...Afraid to call an emergency line as I have so many pychical syptoms afraid they will not believe me and just admit me to a psych. ward...although I am extremely depressed and need someone to talk with....

    Does anyone out there live in Mass. and would be willing to talk with me. I just need a kind word, some hope, someone who understands sleep deprivation and loss of so many things due to this illness...

    Or even a number to call....I am not from here...but need someone who will understand and help me get the help I need.
  3. PaulMark

    PaulMark New Member

    Desperate! 11/27/02 05:40 PM

    I have posted before...thank you for your support...it is very difficult for me now ....holidays....alcoholic father...no doctor...in a strange town with no help in sight...I was suppose to see a specialist in Boston today but my father yelled and makes me more anxious and upset...the fibro pain unbearable..can't sleep...no one to NIcolbr.: I can empathize totally with you except i live alone i'm divorce bedridden mostly with CFIDS and late the fms, family doens't understand i fight wanting to die most days i'm so sick with CFIDS

    I live in west. Ky. and i feel alone too, and if i tell my parents, my 4 sisters and l brother how truly sick and depaerate i am thats all they say depression mentall ill etc.

    so i understand PERFECTLY, you can call me but you probably can't afford the call,

    so next best thing is to e mail, i 'm here all alone also day after day, 2 edged sword get lonely, l7 yr. old daugt. live 6.5 mil away has a car we were so close and never comes to see me, that is as hard to take as the cfids

    so yes i and many on the board understand at times I'm afraid to vent how truly desperate i am i pray a lot and no answers come, (an then i ask for forgivenss from GOD)

    your choice, i'm paul mark
    paulstory@iolky.com

    PS i just thought i don'thvae it at hand but i have the 800 no. to herald of truths response minister who i've called many times, that is his job, herald of truth is a church of christ organ. that publishes liertatire and some radio sermons religouis shows etc. he's a wondeful guy and
    i'm here if you need to talk. If you have seen my post cheney is my dr. and he hasn't been able to help me so i've been very confused lately tryign to treat myself problem is i've not the energy to do all the stuff in some of these books i've posted bout klutzo kows the dilemna as she has studied naturpathic med. and haas muc wisdom i respect her advise immensely

    i'm a christian so have no need to feel that i'm anything but sincere in my concern PM



  4. selma

    selma New Member

    With this time being a holiday, lots of people get depressed. Click on message boards in the box at the top.
    On the right is the depression board. there is also a prayer board listed try both They are inspirational.

    Also Know that you are never alone and GOD is always with us. You like me is a child of OUR FATHER (GOD).
    I'm sending my love and huggs Selma
  5. karen2002

    karen2002 New Member

    Hi Sweetie--We have spoken before...
    and I reread your first post, again. It sounds as if you are in a really bad place---and need support, desparately.
    Please do not be afraid to call an emergency or support line--they are there to help. Even if you are put into a psychiatric facility--you can receive help there for your depression, lack of sleep, AND pain. There will be doctors and staff there who can help you with a plan of action. Perhaps then you can get to see your specialist that was thwarted today. There is nothing shameful about reaching out to get help---and to get away from an alcholic parent (who usually are at their worst, during holidays). If you are not sleeping and in pain, your symptoms will probably increase. Please if you are feeling this desparate, call for help.
    Karen
  6. Ness

    Ness New Member

    I am so sorry that you are having to go through this without anyone close to talk to...

    Do you belong to a church? I know from experience that having a church family can make a big difference when you need support. You can talk with a minister and I am sure that he/she will be able to help you to find the help you need and it will not cost you anything.

    Please....know that you are not alone....I know the pain and frustration that comes with this awful Fibro Monster!!!!

    Peace
    Ness
  7. nicolebr

    nicolebr New Member

    I am christian....was hospitalized after taking Diflucan for one month..it made my syptoms worse...after discharged I called a church and asked to speak to a priest...I was upset crying told him I was alone...in florida my home then...he told me to call a mental health place! Another rejection...I just wanted someone who would listen....My parents are devote catholics and for the month I have been here I have begged them to see if someone from the church would come and talk with me...they refused....I don't know why....I guess they are ashamed and don't believe ...I therefore am afraid to reach out anymore....please isn't there a fibro number to call...this isn't psyciatric ...it is fibro...and as a result of stress and neglect i am depressed.
  8. nicolebr

    nicolebr New Member

    I am afraid of Pych hospitals...I don't trust anymore that anyone would believe what it is like living here...and god if I had the strenth to leave I would...but I can hardly ambulate...mayo said I need 3 months of psyical therapy to get back...but no one is helping me...depression so intense as I go thru sleepless nights and get yelled at for not functioning...I am also afraid of antidepressants as I have tried them in the past and only felt more anxious and sleepless...side effects mimmicked that of cfids....
  9. karen2002

    karen2002 New Member

    Many of us see psychiatrists now and in the past. They are wonderful for dealing with the depression, lack of sleep and many other aspects of fibro.
    They can help you with what you stated was extreme depression. Seeing a mental health caregiver, does not mean you are certifiably nuts---lol
    These diseases cause chemical changes in the brain---psychiatrist are very knowlegdeable in this area. Sleep deprivation, anxiety, and depression are some of those chemical imbalances that can be treated. You have the added burden of coming from a dysfunctioning family--an alcoholic parent.
    Perhaps you can get your foot in the door of a good fibro specialist as well.
    I am so sorry you are going through this---I know the pain emotionally and physically you are feeling. You have all our support.
    Karen
  10. Sandyz

    Sandyz New Member

    I`m so sorry you`re having such a hard time. I understand
    just wanting to give up because you can`t take it anymore.
    I felt that way to but just hang on, and things will get
    better. They did for me and they can for you to.

    I`m saying a prayer for you right now for God to lighten
    the burden of this illness for you. Remember, we`re never
    alone. God is always there to carry us when things get too
    much for us. Also, we all have our own angels around us to
    protect us and be with us at all times.

    Please don`t give up on finding something that will help
    you sleep. If you get some good sleep, things will look a
    lot better to you.

    We care here and will be glad to help you anyway we can!

    Hugs to you,
    Sandyz
  11. Shirl

    Shirl New Member

    I am so sorry that you are in such a bad situation, if you can't get help from your church, try calling another denomination, Baptist, Pentecostal, etc, they are very compassionate people in these churches.

    I don't know a hotline for Fibro, but if Klutzo comes on the board, direct a post to her, she would know if there is one.

    Also, I email back and forth with PaulMark, he is a nice gentle man, and he can relate to you. Or let him give you the number of his church.

    I will be praying for you and your family, just try to ignore the stressful situations, and use your computer or read a book, just try to get out of the line of fire at your family's home right now.

    Let us know how you are doing.

    Shalom, Shirl

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