Hi... New here. When I had the occasion a couple of months ago to have to go to the urgent care. The dr was reviewing the list of medications I was currently taking. When he saw the Ultram, he asked what for and I said FM. He asked me why I was still working. I thought that to be an odd question. He said most people with FM are unable to work. I do drag myself to work everyday. In pain and in a fog with depression and anxiety. I have since been put on Lyrica which is helping with the pain. I do take Cymbalta and Xanax for the depression and anxiety. I have often thought that after 11 yrs in my very high stress job, it is time to go for my disability retirement. I am a civil servant... a welfare case manager. I am afraid to apply for retirement. I have heard that it is almost never granted and can take 12 months for a decision. Our retirement rules are; if I take regular retirement while they are deciding my disability retirement and it is turned down I am not eligible for rehire. If I go out on state disability while my application is being considered and it is turned down, they have to offer me a postion again. Can anyone please help ease my fears. I am so tired. I am so confused about the whole process. I am my sole support and could make it on the state disability but they make all the fine print so confusing that I am scared. AND... the thought of seeing a county doctor at their request, what are the odds of one of those understanding FM and ruling in my favor. Sorry this was so very long and thank you in advance for any responses. I feel alone out here.