Well, I finally rid myself of all the toxic people in my life and now it's time to deal with the husband. He was semi supportive when I first became ill but I guess I always knew he was "weak" minded and would never be able to handle anything like this. So he decided to make things worse and get a drug habit. He was so bad during the summer he ruined our whole summer(4th in a row) and he admitted he had a problem and was going to go to a rehab. He now thinks he is alright because he is taking the precribed amount but he doesn't take it the conventional way. Now he is just a nasty SOB from the time he walks in the house until the time he leaves and I just can't put up with it anymore. He is putting this family through hell and I would rather be alone . I feel like I wasted the past 20 years of my life with him. He blames everything on me. My mother says that if I call the cops on him when he is acting out she will cause trouble for me. She is nuts and she'll take a total stranger over me, it's always been that way. I'm surrounded by toxic people says my therapist but I can't get away from them because I can't afford to. I'm scared and I don't know what to do, this will be a nasty divorce that I'm sure.