I know I do. I feel guilty because I don't feel like going places and doing things. But I think I am going to stop with that stuff. I don't have a good time because I am miserable. I can't walk very far if I am in a crowd so I end up taking a stop and dragging a leg. And my back is killing me. I am also really oversensitive to things I say to people - I always wonder if I have hurt their feelings. Then I find out later they don't even remember my saying anything. It is all a big waste of emotional energy. So why should I even try to go? I think I am going to try and deump the guilt stuff. It is such a waste of time and effort. And it makes me feel just awful about things.