That is how I am feeling right now. My pain seems worse lately. I know I'm depressed, but don't know what to do about it. I have very supportive people in my life, but I feel that I am my own worst enemy. I'm blaming myself for everything right now...."this is your own fault...if you'd eat better, exercise more...have more positive thoughts...you'd feel better...you aren't even really sick...you are just making this up." blah, blah, blah. I think part of it is the weather - really cold in San Diego right now (again, oh poor baby, wah..wah) but at least the sun is out. I'm not used to being in a closed up house with the heater on. Mostly I need someone to talk to. I have two good friends, but I have no one to talk to about feeling like crap everyday. Both of these friends are very positive people, which I appreciate, but sometimes I feel like they don't know or understand how I feel. Anyone feel this way sometimes?