I've had this illness almost 10 years and I still can't get used to the fact that I am not the energetic, take-charge, enthusiastic woman I used to be. This illness embarrasses me. For instance, this morning I feel awful...pain, malaise, fatigue...you name it. I forced myself out of bed and now all I want to do is get back in bed because I'm so ill. I was raised by a mother who never let her daughters rest. On Saturday mornings she would get us up early to clean the house and do the ironing. So I was always busy, busy, busy. Now that I am ill, I can't wrap my mind around the fact that I can't do much at all. My husband is retired and it is embarrassing that he sees me this way most of the time. He never complains and has always been supportive of me, even though I know he is disappointed at times that we don't get to do much (he never says anything, I just know). Thanks for listening. Does anyone else feel this way?