My psyc doc says that I am addicted to my sleep meds. I do take a very large dose and I like to sleep because I don't have to think about how bad I feel, sick and unhappy. There is no guilt when you are sleeping. My doc wants to put me in the hospital to detox but I can't afford it now. It would bankrupt us. I know I should cut back but I don't want to feel anymore. When I go back to work next week I will be so very stressed that even with the sleep meds I will not sleep very well. I will be so very sick agian but as a teacher I will just pretend that every thing is fine.