I am 48 and have suffered from very debilitating fibromyalgia since my early 20's. My energy levels and pain were always a serious issue but now it's beyond the pale. My husband & I live in a rather large 1 bedroom apt. and the place is a MESS. Not just a mess - it's dirty (dare I say filthy?) I do the best I can. Yesterday I cleaned the bathroom top to bottom and it took me hours. I will pay the price in extra pain and fatigue for days to come. I couldn't even consider having anyone over to visit and it makes me so sad. I hate a dirty house - always have - and am filled with shame. My husband is a paraplegic - he's young and healthy except for his being unable to walk but he just can't do much. I do all the shopping, cooking, laundry and errands and with my husband's disability there's a lot to do there. Then I'm completely spent. We aren't rich but I do think we could afford someone to clean if we were careful. Problem is I'm too embarrassed to hire anyone to come in here to clean and see this dirty mess. I feel that I would have to clean it all up first before the cleaning person came and I just can't do that. I feel like most people who hire someone to clean already have a decent house and just want it maintained. How can I handle this? How can I get over my embarrassment and get some help over here without feeling so humiliated? I feel really sad about this.