Do not concern your self about me. I did not write my letter about any thing that was said yesterday or any thing you wrote. I am 44 and have had this crap for years also. I have tried many many things Herbs, drugs ,diets , exercise . And like you I am staying afloat many times with out a life jacket . Often I feel like I am all alone with this strange illness. And it is harmful to compare others suffers to your self. For example when some one says. So and So has CFS or what ever and can do it why can't she. So and So does this or that and it helps her why doesn't she do it? Or if you know doing some thing all the time or every day makes you worse or better why do you not do it or do it? I am so sick of this illness. When you try every thing and at times put your heart and soul the search for wellness at the exclusion of every thing else and you still feel sick you start to lose faith in diets and exercise and all the crap you buy and take. What does encourage me is when I know others are struggle also. They understand they tell me how it is for them. They relate their struggle their story. Not always trying to heal every one. Lets face it some will find relief some will not. Some have been sick longer than others. Some will get better some will not. You will have the self righteous ones who think they were indeed sicker than you are and they got better if you would just take there path. Oh well just want you to know you did not disturb me at all! Bean ..